just a space of random musings.

end of a fandom, back to old love;

elyanee — Thu, 26 Jan 2012 16:25:51 +0000

Okay, I just need to start off this post by saying that….. this post is meant to be dated 26.01.2012, but well I’m writing this at 12MN, and I’m turning into a detailed time freak. So there. :)

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So January of 2012 is ending, and as expected everything was just going on smooth. I see the year being exactly what it was going to be. Until today. Nothing dramatic, but it is affecting me, just abit. My two favourite people have officially split. Not sure why, or how it happen, but yes, it happened.

Not going to comment to much on IT, because 1) this is not a fan blog, 2) I am just a fan.

We are afterall just mere spectators. Almost two years (three years, if you count the early days) and I had so much faith and hope. But well, it was a great lovetrip, with so much friends made, and happy moments spent. #thankyoumelasonforthememory With this great turning of event, I’ve exited pfandom timely, to get back to my first love Kpop. :)

On that happy note, lets just say I hope that my Tagalog wont get too rusty when I eventually feel like going back there. -.-

Pfandom had made me seen the good and ugly side of pinoys. The fandom is just… crazy. You either love or hate the celebrities, with this medium being a warfare between ugly bashers with ridiculous attitude of hatred and irk out of nowhere vs loyal fans who are delusional and overprotective that made them over ridiculously emotionally invasive. Oh well, I met some good people there and still tweeting them, so no hate feelings.

On a more positive note, as a fan, I do hope these two people, who have given me great happiness and more faith for love, to find their own happiness, and much better to find themselves back hopefully to each other. Just hoping the best for them. #melason will always be a good fandom memory, so I’m thankful for that.

And with that last full stop, I’m really out of melason world and pinoy fandom altogether for good. :)

brief goodbye; hello 2012.

elyanee — Sat, 31 Dec 2011 11:49:56 +0000

2011 is ending, and I’m doing major reflection on what’s been happening.

It was a year of cleaning up the mess, fixing things, and doing things my way. A year of self-reflection, self-satisfaction…. and just loving life. A year of lesson learnt, and got over with. Got myself into new campus, new course, new friends, with my new self.

I got myself back into Kfandom, with yongseo and cnblue and just loving it again. Can’t wait when Shinhwa boys come back in time next year. :)

All in all, despite the lack of post updates in this space, I’m really just enjoying life in 2011. Everything is almost perfect. I fall in love with the same person I did last year, and got over it again. And I cancelled off some points off my Bucket List, which is quite a feat. I laughed more than I cried. Nothing eventful, but every day was just bliss. I feel more thankful and just happy.

It’s a good year, indeed. And I won’t switch it for anything better…. ;)

May 2012 be as great, if not better. InsyaAllah…

for record sake;

elyanee — Fri, 23 Dec 2011 16:25:49 +0000

i just have to write this up so i can read back this space and remember what i’ve been doing this time of the year.

it’s dec 2011, and i just start to obsessed with yonghwa of cnblue. i mean obsessed. i can say that i have finally return to kfandom after a long while. all thanks to him ;)

indeed, it’s going to be a hectic fandom mode for me now. #melason #shinhwa #cnblue #yonghwa #yongseo crazzzzeeeeeee.

this is just so…..irrelevant. but well, i’m just a happy fangirl. fangirling is almost my life :)

like oh ha ni;

elyanee — Sat, 19 Nov 2011 14:11:50 +0000

i’m so transparent if you can’t see through me you must be blind.

i really wanted to get away if this is getting nowhere. but gosh, i think this is getting damn serious, it’s scary. the very thing that makes me scared is really going to happen.

the 2nd date.

elyanee — Sat, 19 Nov 2011 14:02:39 +0000

bad way to move on away from you.

Love you once, Love you still. Always have, and always will.

unfinished business ;)

elyanee — Tue, 18 Oct 2011 16:05:42 +0000

i got a pass for accounting and a distinction for intro management. just a good start for this new life :) and i sacrificed a date and countless no life weekends for this.

worth it. love, you can wait. heh. :)

gleeD again,

elyanee — Sun, 09 Oct 2011 11:16:09 +0000

okay, after days of watching glee casts in real live via concerts and fancams, i conclude that cory monteith, chris colfer and darren criss gives the best fan service, especially cory and darren. like MAJOR.

but of course, cory M is still my number one crushable, and i adore chris colfer. dont like darren c at all, except when he’s related to chris. somehow, he’s a turnon if hes being a gay. like, seriously.

#imjustsaying.

still GLEEd to glee.

elyanee — Tue, 04 Oct 2011 16:48:46 +0000

Cory Monteith is probably the nicest hollywood star ever. i watched random fancams, and every time he’s the nicest and down to earth out of the bunch spending time with autograph and picture taking with fans and paps alike. and i love how the paps really have convos with him like old friends. totally adorable.

…and totally crushable. :)

gLee!

elyanee — Sun, 02 Oct 2011 09:11:25 +0000

I’m officially obsessed with Glee! Unwelcoming distraction, and I finished two seasons in two days! ;)

Mark Sailing and Cory M turns me on, and Chris C is crushable despite being a gay. :)

yes, i’m glee-ed.

accounting with parasites,

elyanee — Thu, 15 Sep 2011 11:41:12 +0000

Zu got a diary as in those writing ones, and it made me miss diary days, Good old days of paper and pen, and privacy (or sometimes, maybe not).

And that is just a random thought.

I miraculously suddenly remember owning this virtual diary hehe. Nothing much to ramble here, just that Ive been busy having a great life. School and work, and catching up with people, and keeping in touch with people who matters, and getting stress over school assignments. And bitching on others. (I prefer calling it venting out anger and frustration).

Well, one bit happened yesterday, while I was fretting over BASIC accounting. Screw accounting, basic or not. It’s totally not for me, after ITE days. So W the mate kept spamming me with texts for answers. She didn’t even bother ACT like she want to know how I got mine. She just shamelessly outright, asked me WHAT’S THE ANSWER.

I was just going to give her one answer on account that she’s nice and everything. But well, sometimes nice is not enough if you’re effortlessly annoying. 6 text messages in one day, and three missed calls. Desperation, much. Infairness, she THINKS I’ma genius. Haha.

Now, that’s not the ending.

[What's with my "story-telling skills", I know. ]

I was naturally just frustrated about it, and happen to be online on FB. Guess what the typical me did. I vent it out on FB, childishly as usually. It’s a good way, actually, to have somewhere to frust and rant at. (because I totally forgot about blogs, seriously.)

Well, it was a mistake.

Not on my part, at least. Pfft.

I wrote something about wishing you and your arrogance a good life as the status. (because W mate was being exactly that. ) After giving her three answers (luckily she’s too dumb to remember about putting refs and all.) I asked if she had other answers too and she was being all defensive and cold and back to her arrogant imbecile self. What. The. Hell.

But LOL. this is not the point of this rambling.

Another someone thought I was referring to her (out of the blue!) and started to also childishly write status which suspiciously is replying to everything I wrote on my wall (effort ftw!) :D Oh my god.

I was amused (and still am!) that she “terasa” out of nowhere (and apparently this was because i asked her one time if she know how to do since she did accounting but she said no idea.) Like seriously, you pest, i didn’t asked you the second time because i know your dirty self already. (WANT ME TO SPELL IT OUT?! *rolleyes*) Minus the amused bit, I was quite disgusted that she thought everything i wrote is about her. LIKE OMG. YOU REALLY HAVE THE PRINCESS DISEASE! (oops, hinted.)

it might not matter much this whole episode when i read this back. just a badtrip with random unimportant people who made my off day of mugging worst.

This post is just to remind myself when I read this back, the kind of people I’m surrounded with. An arrogant idiot with no brain to do any school shit but still in school, and a self-obsessed theworldrevolvesaroundme (i’m still amused thinking about this.) , apparently a sister, who’s offended and all defensive about seeing the word ‘arrogant’ maybe because she honestly think that’s how people see her as. (well, lu punye bau, lu tau sendiri la beb.)

ok i’m done ranting. this is so much better than spamming FB. i missed you blog. *sprays off parasites*

student,

elyanee — Sat, 30 Jul 2011 17:09:03 +0000

It’s Saturday night. Monday there’s an Accounting quiz, and I’m actually excited about it, despite my rusty memory of ITE Accounting basics. Just loving my student life now. Back to being one, and very much appreciates it.

Some things you take for granted, and when you haven’t done it for awhile you missed it much. Thank God, I get to live through it again. Alhamdulillah.

matters.

elyanee — Sat, 02 Jul 2011 16:17:36 +0000

i love catching up with old friends. people who mattered, and still matters. those i keep in touch and when we meet, there’s no awkwardness. just rambling away… and laughing along.

good vibes, happy heart.

badtrip;

elyanee — Sat, 25 Jun 2011 13:31:54 +0000

Major badtrip. And the shitty thing is that I have no idea why in the blue hell am I feeling so shitty now. Just the thought of it is annoying. It’s like suddenly having no expectation to meet, which means people pretty much don’t expect anything from you.

Or worst, people don’t expect much from you.

Not that this have anything to do with…. anything. I’m just describing this mundane depression. Screw ‘depression’. My vocab is getting crappy, I can’t think of any other word. And not that this have anything to do with…. anything.

And this is another post going to the pleasedonotreadthisbackifudontwannacringe bin.

Isn’t it obvious? I have shitty, crappy and depression in one bloody post, and few words away from each other. And the only decent thing worth reading is the word ANYTHING.

And I’m Rebecca Black (read; crappy).

funny.

elyanee — Mon, 20 Jun 2011 13:27:22 +0000

I get this funny feeling just hearing your voice, which is why I keep rushing to end the conversation and shut the phone after waking you up every morning.

I get this funny feeling when I look at you straight, which is why I keep avoiding your eyes whenever our eyes met.

I get this funny feeling when you message me at FB, all excited to share your day, and ask me about mine.

I get this funny feeling when your texts came, and your random ramblings made me smile.

I get this funny feeling when you’re all sweet, and made my day.

I know what this funny feeling is, but I’m not going to say it out loud. I felt it, and I’m loving it.

Thank you for making me feel it all over again, whatever that will happen in the future.

Just this sincere Thank You.

my thought,

elyanee — Sat, 04 Jun 2011 14:40:09 +0000

Fuck favouritism. Fuck lazy sister. Fuck screwed people who think they are better than anyone else, just because. Fuck whoever is reading this and starting to bitch.

I don’t give a shit.

On a vulgar rampage, don’t mind me. It’s not teenage angst, I’m totally over that pace, hello. It’s just life. And my luck surrounded by people like this.

Fuck everyone, for that matter.

And as much as I hate this word, Fuck makes it all better when I said it in your face. Here’s an extra Fuck. Fuck you.

Okay, I’ll switch to being an angel mode. This is the last Fuck.